Reprobation Lament Suffering Lyrics

What I hate, eternally lies in me
You'd be surprised what derives from what you despise
I see myself deforming
I must defeat to retain my monotonous state
Suffer, inside
I sense myself conforming
I must try to regain my obscurity
Scalpel taken to the cheek, carved off to spite my face
Jagged scar covers the gross deformity
Blood dripped down, skin peeled off
Penetrate myself with my boring tool
Consistency of butchery, unspeakable
Acts on the abhorred, self inflicted gore
Left his body and soul deformed
I feel myslef sufferingI cannot escape this lament pain
Suffer, inside
Consistency of butchery is killing me
Lament suffering.