Shotgun Rules vs Lyrics

This has always been the solution.
Now I wait for the bitter ending and the solace it will bring.
I need to rid myself of this, after one last time
My past recurs and I await your arrival
Here's hoping you lost your way, but I left the light on just in case
Time's up I'm about to cut these ties before you have the chance.
You've led this dance but the song is about to end.
If there's martyrdom in self-control, then I'm the new jesus
And what if I would say it's over?
That your guidance is no longer welcome here?
Your guidance is unwanted.